30th Dec 1939

Postmarked COLNE LANCS 8PM 30 DEC 1939
addressed to Lieut. R. Helme, A Coy 1/6 D.W.R., Church House, Norton, Malton, Yorks

Albert House, Colne, Lancs.

30^th Dec.

My darling Ronnie,

I feel just like a wet week. In fact, I feel like a wet Season now that you have gone. Oh Angel Boy, how I miss you, and there is a real ache inside me today. A nasty lonely lump in my throat and chest, and the tears are so near the surface.

Still, I must be brave, and I should be used to you going away by now. But I shall never learn to do without you, so please make the war end soon.

I am posting this tonight so as you will get it on Monday for sure, because I should hate you not to get a letter from me then. You would start being lonely and unloved, and that would be quite, quite wrong.

I am sending you a dog coat, which I am fairly certain will be too small, but it is on approval, and it will just give us an idea. I should have taken him up I know, but I’m sending a measure tape so that you can measure him. Please send me the coat back as soon as ever you can dear. All you have to do is readdress it.

How is Prince. I am missing the old boy a good deal. He is cheery about the place, and I shall miss taking him out in the afternoon. I even forgot to say goodbye to him, I was so upset at having to say goodbye to you…

I have just been down to the post and it is a very dark miserable night, and the torch I took was no earthly good.

James has just come back from the day at Chester where he has had an interview to do with his joining the R.A.M.C. He will probably be going in about a fortnight, and has been told to get his uniform. It’s all very upsetting, isn’t it. Poor lad, I don’t think he wants to go at all. To hell with the war is what I say.

Marj wants me to ask you about the car we hired – at least, your family hired. Naylor is now making out that you didn’t give any coupons for your petrol. That you said Dad would provide the coupons, and that the three you gave him were just a present so to speak. I’m sure this isn’t true. It strikes me the confounded firm is just trying to make an ass of poor Marj. who got really annoyed with them this morning. What’s more they are charging you for five gallons when I think we only used three. They are completely vile yes?

Well darling, that’s taken a lot of explaining, and what I really want to tell you is how much I love you. Life is so empty without you. There seems nothing I can do to comfort myself. I daren’t look forward to the twelfth in case you can’t come over. Oh honey, you’re all I want and you know it, don’t you?  I couldn’t ever, ever give you up how ever much I henpeck natter, quarrel. Darling, I love you with all my heart, my soul, my body. Someday I shall show you just how much I do love you.

When I put my arms round your dear neck this morning I could have screamed at having to let you go. Sweetheart come back soon because I’m living for you. I think I am about to cry.

All my love,

Yours for ever,

Kay.